Paradise is now burned,

I don’t care I’m not concerned.

It’s your fault but I should lie.

To my freedom must bid goodbye.

Why it’s me, who had to race

; Against the curse of the time.

We are too young to face this case

; Tastes sourer than a lime.

Let’s escape and runaway

; Against the laws and the rules.

There is a cost that you have to pay

But I won’t let them, I’ll have them fooled.

In this Chamber we were stocked

On such issues you lost your luck.

Behind the bars I saw something

We saw the night sky is enchanting.

On hardships we were left for dead

But we lived and move ahead.

We are too young to sacrifice

But I won’t let them make you pay the price.

They wanted us on separate ways.

On your memories give me a place.

Visit me if you have time

As I was paying your crime.

No direction

Half of my feet are on the grave
Having hard time to be brave
I’m earning nothing but air
Want to comeback to the snare

Nothing to look forward to
I’m starting lose courage too
Can’t escape from the bottom
Cos my brain is getting random


My Composure is clumsy
And I’m turning lazy
I don’t need your discipline
It won’t go though my skin

Will there be an improvement?
Still tired up to this moment
I wept in starvation
Of a higher motivation


But there’s still no direction
Five dozens of correction
Weary of being a retard
That panics inside the blizzard?


Crying out for help will never work
And I’m dead of the hardwork
Unimpressed of the outcome
So depressed about the sum



Where is the hope that you promised?
Is it a lie that I had kissed
My position is critical
This illness is getting fatal

Where had the rainbows been?

Fragrance has no more scent.

Endurance lost strenght.

I can't see no life form.

I'm crawling like a worm.

The Sprinkles of dust

and metals covered in rust.

Corpses in everyplace,

and a new unsolved case.

Catacombs are displayed.

wrong traits are now obeyed.

What is the use of deceptions?

We are divided in versions.

Againts my will I'm in a war.

Science gaved me such scar.

Fairwell to home and friends.

Is this how the story ends?

It's not what I dreamed of.

My knees are turning soft.

About what have occured.

I'm begging for help my lord.

Where had the rainbows been?

When will the clouds gets thin.

The storm is not stopping.

Torential downpours dropping.

Colors changing hue,

but there's still no clue.

about the next conclusion

after this invasion.

Vanished in just one step.

Promises never been kept.

Can anybody stop this now.

There should be hope...somehow.

Punished by a wrong step.

promises remained unkept.

Will someone give us help somehow.

We needed salvation now!

Aging

Here I am on this wheelchair
Sitting in complete despair
Accepted that I’m aging
As my health is fading

There you are in full comfort
Thanks to my concrete support
Enjoy lounging in luxury
While I’m in complete misery

In this sick retirement home
Within a lonely poem
The nurse pretending like she cares
But she is mechanical in the way she stares

The dawn have devoured the sun
All my life I don’t have fun
Passing all my knowledge for you
I had enough from saving you from the curfew

I’m useless now so you had left me
Disrespecting me like an enemy
How dare you abandoning me in the dark
While it is me who gave you your spark

Who fed you when you are hungry?
Who gave you drink when you are thirsty?
Who dressed you up when you are naked?
Who make rest when you felt jaded?


Who gathers firewood when you were shivering from the cold?
When your life is shapeless I gave you mold.
How could you leaving me because I’m invalid?
Remember how I helped you when you are feeling timid?

Abandoning me without looking back at all
The way you grin when I take the fall
Snubbing the one who put you in your current place
Makes the honor you have a disgrace

I swear you will grow old just like me
I can picture what you turn into.
Enjoy your meal of betrayal
Eat your meal of denial

Snake inside the plastic sack!
You will pay for not looking back!
We will share the same fate
Absorb it all until it’s too late

Next time it’s your turn
Tomorrow you will regret that you are born
Uselessness is an adjective that you will earn
Karma will crack up your big horn

Ode Number 0001

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Controlling my temper
The sequence is hyper
Confused about the pace
Counting the inner space.
Running from my old fears
The world I joined is fierce
Receiving the critiques
Rampage that can’t be fixed
You were there and I’m here
There are words you must hear
Youth that we never have
Yelling from a yellow pad.
Initials of our names
Together in the flames
Inside my only choice
I still hear your voice.
None of my predictions
Telling my convictions
Never been hurt this way
Never been in dismay.
Get out of my tired mind.
Thinking of you makes me blind.
Grinding the bits and pieces.
Gone by infinite mess.

Hedgehog

Alone Every night in the endless fright,
Black moths and Butterflies are on my sight.
Seized by darkness, fear and pain,
Up to the morning the nightmares just maintain.
No particular reason they just hate me.
Whatever I do is treason, they just avoid me.
I lost most fortitude to keep on standing.
They find me and my quills terrifying.
Entities are destroying my dreams and goals.
I’m not a cement to cover your holes.
The damage can’t be healed for I’m heedless.
They make me feel very useless.
If they want to laugh they will jeer at me.
This chaotic life has no clarity.
Ousted; when I spoke my own outcry,
Conflicts to move on make me die.
Alone, every day light with my self I fight.
Against wrong allegations I had lost my right.
I’m a Hedgehog who can’t be hug as you see.
All their trash is dedicated for me.
I was Alone in every morning and afternoons;
Strangled by squirrels, bunnies and raccoons
Misery is my twin, I have no friends.
A wallflower in the dead ends
Tagging me as a menacious freak
Concluding my existence with a leak
I’m drugging hard but no one cares.
I’m wretch and trapped on these snares.
Collapse the pain and shame please.
Demolish the walls around me please.
All the blame: Go away faraway from me.
Clear my name in jeopardy.
Hysterical, I have no one to depend
Is there a forest where I can blend?
I tried to be a good boy and I tried so hard
But rejection is my reward.
I’m alone…Alone
Into this cruel world
I’m alone… all alone…
This cruel world is blurred.
Alone…Alone…Wake me up if this thing is a dream.
Alone…Alone
If I could only scream

I wrote this during the darkest years of my life. It's all about having a hard time to fit in to a society. This about the pain of having no friends just because you are not good enough for them.

disapointed

Disappointed

I thought I’m the greatest
I thought I’m the strongest
I thought I’m not the weakest
I thought I’m the fittest
I thought I’m the most talented
I thought I’m the most gifted
I thought I’m well crafted
I thought I’m the most appreciated
I thought I will not fail
I thought I will prevail
I thought I will not trail
I thought I will hit the nail
I thought I can do very well
I thought I can fastly excel
I thought I can spell
I thought I can ring the bell
The Result is the opposite
Insults crashed me on a slit
Critiques dumped me on a pit
Inner bankruptcy crushed my conceit.
Lacerations deep inside
I almost committed suicide
The outcome is not what I expect along the ride
My I face, I want to hide.
I thought I have a happy ending
I thought I have a factor so interesting
I thought I have no reminiscing
I thought I have no descending
I thought I’m a star
I thought I’m a czar
I thought I’m a genius who will get very far
I thought I’m a skin with no scar
I thought all of my dreams will come true
I thought I already grew
I thought I already flew
I thought I already knew
I thought….I thought so…